In a stunning twist of fate, the new opportunity was thrilling, engaging, and excellent, and also, ultimately, incredibly short on funds. I\u2019ve not yet given up complete hope, and have another meeting on Monday, but the money I was offered was so far from the mark that I hardly was able to keep my composure. And now I realize that one of the only reasons I\u2019ve been able to handle the job I have now was the prospect of leaving as soon as this bigger, better thing finally worked itself out. I\u2019m suddenly now thrown back into the sea of possibility (and that\u2019s looking at it positively) of what else I might do with my time here. I do not want to stay at my present job for very long- where I am belittled, and ordered around, and talked down to. Oh yeah, and where I don\u2019t make enough money to live. I feel abandoned a little bit, by both my man and this possibility, and it makes for a crummy day.<\/p>\n
I know I need to move on from both, even as I still work through both, but it\u2019s hard when you feel like\u2026 well. I feel like I deserve some good stuff to happen to me. Let me rephrase that. I feel as though I\u2019ve put in a hell of a lot of work and I would like to see some results, on sort of a grander scale. I am so willing to work so hard and sometimes it feels as though I\u2019m just wading through sticky mud.<\/p>\n
In fact, sometimes I just don\u2019t know what more I can do. I don\u2019t know if I can try any harder, or work any harder, or wish any harder, or believe any more deeply.
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