My love is gone
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His boots no longer by my door
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He left at dawn
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And as I slept I felt him go
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Returns no more
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I will not watch the ocean<\/p>\n
Although, in his case, it would be Birkenstocks rather than boots, and the ocean is the gravel that covers my driveway. He\u2019s not gone yet, not until tomorrow morning, but I don\u2019t think either of us are really looking forward to tonight, our \u201clast\u201d night together. He still insists it is just the beginning. I know better. He knows I know better.<\/p>\n
What is it like, being 23 years old? What does it mean to wake up each morning having lived only 23 years? When I was 23, I had just met Wayne, just graduated from college, and had no clear idea who I was. I moved to Chicago, did a bunch of terrible shows and a couple great shows. I flew to Kansas City about twelve times that year on Southwest Airlines. (Can\u2019t imagine life before Jet Blue.) I called my brother Sean so many times because I was so terribly lost, and befuddled by my own actions. God. 23. I can\u2019t even imagine.<\/p>\n
Well. I\u2019m curious to see how I feel tomorrow, and the next day, and the next, and how exactly I will move on. My stomach is in knots.
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