{"id":78,"date":"2006-12-16T23:49:00","date_gmt":"2006-12-16T23:49:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/sbw.webfactional.com\/blog\/?p=78"},"modified":"2006-12-16T23:49:00","modified_gmt":"2006-12-16T23:49:00","slug":"little-ones","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/2006\/12\/little-ones\/","title":{"rendered":"little ones"},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s hard to write about being away from Sean & Jordi during the birth of their first son, but, well, here I am. I’m going to be in New York in four days, but that’s four days from holding little Barnaby who has already staked quite a claim on my heart. I’ve been seriously thinking about how this is possible, from so far away, but it is, simply. The same with Lucy- I see her so rarely, but this sweet girl…<\/p>\n

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I claim for my own. Not “mine”, just part of my clan, part of my fierce love. And part of the reason I need to make this world a better place to live.<\/p>\n

Even with my heartache, my longing to be with the Williams little ones, I’ve found a new sort of peace these last three days. I don’t know exactly how to explain it, but I’m ready to start making decisions based on life as I know it, rather than hope. I don’t know that hope alone actually changes anything, and I don’t know that hope actually alters outcomes, but I do know that action is just that- it’s change, it’s movement, and it’s all I can control. I can’t control who falls into my life, I can’t control people’s reactions towards me, but I can control how I spend my days, and I can try to shape what lingers in my mind.<\/p>\n

I spent this evening with part of my California family, otherwise known as Punky and Matty.<\/p>\n

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These are the kind of friends one prays for, if one were the praying type. It’s less painful to be away from my blood when I have friends like these. And terrific lipstick. But these next few days are going to be distracted and strange, waiting for the moment that I can be with Sean, and the baby boy who, in my mind, has been waiting to hang out with Sean for a long time.<\/p>\n

Four days. Even I, the least patient woman this side of the Mississippi, can wait four days. Maybe.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

It’s hard to write about being away from Sean & Jordi during the birth of their first son, but, well, here I am. I’m going to be in New York in four days, but that’s four days from holding little Barnaby who has already staked quite a claim on my heart. I’ve been seriously thinking […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-78","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/78","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=78"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/78\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=78"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=78"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mlwms.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=78"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}