Posted February 12th, 2003 by Michelle

My brother Ian has a blog (xtcian.net) which he has been writing for a few years now, and in it he updates how Celexa is affecting his life. Beyond that, it is brillantly written. Ian’s writing reminds me of Beethoven. Both knock me over- surprise me, take my breath, break my heart. And every now and then, I have to wonder if I, too, should be medicated, like several of my brothers. But I really don’t think so. I really think my feelings of unhappiness are situational, not chemical. I know when I’ve been happy, what it takes, what I need to do. That seems to be the problem now- I am fiercely devoted to the idea of having four careers, and yet, right now, I have none of them.

I think what I really need is a nap, and a trip to California.