Posted April 25th, 2003 by Michelle

I’m trying very hard to have some degree of contentment in my life. I’m trying to find satisfaction and actualization in the small things I accomplish. It’s difficult. But I’m trying. Today, for instance- it’s not quite 11 AM, and yet I’ve already had a full day. I dragged myself out of bed at 6:30, rode into the city for a 7:30 yoga class, did some errands around town, and rode home. I’m trying to feel satisfied but mostly I just feel like a big noodle.

Zooey now lives in the cage, or as Ian likes to call it, the old folks’ home. He’s out when I’m out, and at night when all he does is lie like a lump next to my head, but when I even go for groceries he’s right back in. He doesn’t seem to mind too much, although the minute I walk back in the door he’s howling to get out. And then he wants to put his butt all over my pillows. Yuck. When he was sick he completely destroyed my best sheet set- the set was like a billion thread count and super soft and white and, well, no amount of washing could cure it. Ah well- yet another lesson in impermanence.

I’m having a meeting at one of our sister restaurants today to try to set up a time to do a show. The restaurant has a jazz club which is dark on many Monday nights, and I’ve been trying to get a date there on a dark night for months. Turns out they have been incredibly busy, too much so to listen to the demo I sent them, so I’m trying a new angle. I want to put on a show, with my brother, as a benefit for the AIDSRide I’m doing in September. If I do it through the restaurant, it will go in the newsletter, which reaches some 50,000 people, and they will open the bar and the kitchen for the show. It’s a crazy busy summer, with Ian and Tessa’s wedding, and hopefully the Fringe Festival for Sean, but I really hope we can get a spot. Having a date would be really helpful in making ourselves work towards getting this show put together.

My whole block is blooming- the trees, the tulips, the dogs, the people. We deserve a terrific spring.