Hematoma? I don’t even know…

Posted September 16th, 2004 by Michelle

Just in case you’ve all been desperately checking my blog, wondering the fate of my dear, sweet, kitty cat, well, have I got news for you. The incision where they drained the hematoma did not heal. Ever. So after the sutures came out, good ‘ol Fezzik got another fresh set, this time only at the incision point. So he had to keep the cone on his head for another two weeks. That was a week ago. Last night my dear, sweet human friend Elizabeth came over for a glass of wine and some tasty salmon and Fezzik would not leave us alone. I reached into the cone to pet him, and lo! There it was. A brand-new hematoma, in the very same ear, in the very same space, all delightfully swollen with blood that lost its way. I couldn’t fucking believe it.

I finally got my vet on the phone, and so after work, I trudged my way through horrendous harvest traffic, picked up my not-so-willing animal, and trudged ALL THE WAY back down-valley to go back to the way-too-familiar vet’s office. This time, I forked out another bablillon dollars to do a blood work-up. There is some reason that he’s not healing, but it is truly baffling. Worst possible scenario is he has kitty AIDS or some other rotten disease. Regardless, his ear will be super ugly for the rest of his life. By the time all is said and done, he will have been in the cone for at least three solid months. His ego will be forever bruised.

In better news, I had yet another terrific day at work. There are so many damn good people in this valley, who want great things to happen, and who actually believe that I might be able to do something here. Letting them down is not an option.

To that end, why don’t all of you in cyber-space help me out? I need grant money, private donations, children’s piggy bank contents the nation over. Everyone wants to fund our Arts in Educaton programs, but no-one wants to fund the organization that can bring those programs to the classrooms. We need to have lights and power and a desk and a staff in order to create the programming that brings arts ed into the schools. But that is a difficult correlation for the public to make. It’s like the Red Cross. The Red Cross wanted to divert 9/11 donation funds to help themselves become a more effective and viable organization, and the public cried “FOUL!”. Why? Because the Joe America wanted his $20 to go directly to a child who lost his parents. Joe American didn’t understand that the Red Cross has been helping millions of people while just barely skimming by. As a Red Cross Emergency Service Responder, I made a whopping $70 a day before taxes- more like about $50 a day- and had to keep my full-time job just to be able to be of service. With a fraction of that 9/11 money, the Red Cross could have updated a computer system, repaired broken toilets, hell, paid their ESRs a living wage, but instead, they were forced to keep eeking by, and therefore unable to grow and serve even more people.

It’s the same damn thing. Everyone wants to fund the programs I want to create, but they don’t want to support my staff or pay my utility bill so I am ABLE to create the funding. Paying for light bulbs and staples is a lot less sexy than paying for a cute 6-year-old to slop clay all over an (also) underpaid art teacher. There is a disconnect, and I don’t know how to remedy it. Everyone is slapping me on the back, exclaiming, “FINALLY, someone like you is here!!!” They are also saying, “oooh, that program is right up my foundation’s alley!” I need one just one of them, one big fat donor to say, “I believe in what you are doing. I see where you are going, and I understand what it takes to get there. Here’s $50,000.” God, do you know what could happen with just 50 grand? That would be what it took to do all this groundwork, hire my program manager full-time, and get swinging! But until then, I’m stuck borrowing a toilet, rubbing my sore back that has been slapped a thousand times. If had a dollar for every time…

If you or someone you know just happens to be a) loaded and b) an arts supporter, well then hell. I’ve got a great write-off for you. I hope you think light bulbs and staples are sexy, cuz at this point, they are terribly attractive to me.