lightning vs. lightning bugs

Posted April 11th, 2006 by Michelle

LASIK is a miracle. Truly. I’m not out of the woods yet- still terrified of infection and desperately trying to keep soap, sweat, and my own little fingers away from my eyeballs (oh! how I LONG to rub my eyes, like in ye olden days!) – but I still can’t believe how well I see, how beautifully deliciously I see everything. When I have the energy to do so, I’m going to describe the surgery in detail (christ, it was weird) although things get fuzzy immediately after, since that’s when the valium finally kicked in. Boy, was it not working before or during the surgery.

So, yes, it went wonderfully. I even have some complications- some wrinkling of my cornea on my left eye- but my vision is so good out of it that they aren’t worried. I have YET ANOTHER post-op- my third- on Friday, and I’m hoping for a clean bill of health. It’s scary, though, to know that I’ve just undergone elective surgery, and that things could still go wrong. For some reason, I’ve not done the sacrifical burning and stomping of my glasses and contact cases and such… maybe I’m just superstitious, and I’d never be able to use any of them again anyway because my prescription will never be exactly that again… but still. I’ll destroy it all when I’m sure I’m out of the woods.

Full details on the surgery and the post-surgery fun coming soon.

In other news, I broke up with Dan on Sunday night. As wonderful as he was, something shifted in him when I finally started liking him. He pursued me so dilligently, so consistently, with such affection and admiration, and as soon as I started returning all of the above, he took a step back, and then another and then another, until I woke up Sunday morning and looked over at him thought to myself, “I want to wake up totally excited that the person next to me is there, and want him to be totally excited that he’s with me.” And neither was true. And so I foray back into the world of singlehood, because I don’t want to be with *someone*, I want to be with *awesome*. I just can’t do it any other way.